today, we were slow to start out: i wanted to linger over french toast, maple syrup and lazy fatigue; my merry men(including the one almost 40)wanted to linger over a new-to-us strategy game. reflecting now on our very wiped out bodies, i wonder if perhaps we picked a hiking destination a bit too far away considering it was the afternoon when we started out; the afternoon is never quite the ideal time to start hiking in southern california and it was hot today high up on the bluffs and the worn out mountains of Santa Monica.
once we started out on our chosen trail, we acknowledged how heated the air really was. and there seemed to be no respite for those who wanted to wander in the shade. the wind would only play with your skin if you were standing still, in direct sunlight. so we were just hot, exposed in the daylight; and trudging our bodies along, feeling the the small laughter of a wandering crow, or a cry high above us from a red tail hawk. as i stared at the barren dry land, it felt more as if it was the high end of summer than the first few weeks of spring, yet i was still able to breathe in air and let go of things.
all week i felt like a mismatched gumshoed detective that couldn't quite find what was the last clue to some grand mystery; wanting to be the detective, but knowing that it wasn't quite mine to solve....so perhaps i needed this moment more than the boys, to be heated, sweating, feeling the sun pound through my cap and bounce off my knees. exposed. raw. sweating out the muck. for me, perhaps, i needed to push through to the end, watch the boys play and regale in nature despite the heat we were all feeling. press a restart button somewhere in my heart and look out anew to the coming days. and know that all over the world, people are waking to something new, whether it is joy or despair; happy wedded moments or darkness rather left to dust and grief. we are human. and sometimes we just have to push through, with only a whisper of wind to graze across our hearts or lift-up our shirts. push through, until we are
back home.
xxoo
Beautiful words and beautiful photos. As much as we want to solve all the problems sometimes we must let them go and a visit with nature is the best way to do so!!!!!! Boys at the end of a hot long day are precious - a different kind of quiet and well nothing beats peeling off socks and shoes and letting your toes breath - I absolutely love that feeling.
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You described it perfectly Chey. "Peeling off socks and shoes and letting your toes breath." It just liberates the whole body!
DeleteAnd yes, sometimes I have to just give things up to Nature, so grateful that I am able to do so. xo
It sounds like an idyllic day...your weather is warming up...ours is cooling down...but I felt a bit warmer reading this :0)
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It was oh so very hot that day I honestly wished we were headed toward autumn again!
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Beautiful. Looks such a beautiful warm day, I'm already missing summer! xo
ReplyDeleteMost days I am ready for summer, but after that hike I was ready for winter!
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Gosh you are good, going on a hike in the heat. But with such beautiful views, I can't blame you though I know my kids would do nothing but moan - all the way there and...all the way back.
ReplyDeleteIt would have to be ice creams all round.
Nina x
mmmmmmm ice cream. I think next time I will have to bribe them with ice cream (if we ever go on such a late afternoon hike again in the dreaded heat).
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Just going outside is the best way to clear my head. To walk or run is even better. But I still stay in the house- lesson planning or cleaning or working on the computer. I'm going outside right now! Enjoyed catching up on your blog!
ReplyDeleteOut of the doors always clears my head and too often I forget to just walk out my back door!
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