28 October 2013

monday messiness and mothering


It is almost full circle. The first year of my mother's passing. Yesterday would have been her 73rd birthday. It seems like a rather old number when I write the number 73 down, but my mother was never an old lady. Her spirit was very young, her face always youthful, despite her years. 

Life moves on and now the end of this first year without her is coming to a close.  I find myself taking deep breaths and exhaling slowly.  And, despite my desire somedays to do otherwise, I find myself moving forward anyway, without her, and yet very much with her. 

Moving forward in that great upward spiral of life. xxoo

19 comments:

  1. Wishing you peace and love on this day. Take care.

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  2. beautiful photo. Sending out peaceful thoughts to you today.

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  3. Oh ... the first year. We seem to go through a process of noting each event ... without our mother. First Christmas ... without her. First birthday ... without her. Yep ... the first year is a hard one.
    Thinking of you.
    xx

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    1. Oh Lou. I wish I lived next door to you. Then we could put the older boys in charge while we had a girls night out. xo

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    3. only removed b/c it was a repeat of the first comment. xo

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    4. Sounds fabulous ... I wish we could ... but I insist you call me Jo ;0)
      xxx

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    5. Gosh I am a numskull! Sorry Jo. xo

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  4. What a lovely photo. You are in my thoughts today Rebecca.

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  5. I do not think the circle ever fully closes when you miss someone. My Grandmother died at 77 (she too was a young woman), every September 11 when other are remembering another anniversary, I think of just how much I miss her. So if your heart aches like mine every anniversary will be hard. Much love

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  6. thinking of you. and beautiful words, whilst you move forwards she grows and moves forward in you, with you x

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  7. Thinking of you Rebecca. I lost my Grandmother 2 years ago and I found the first year so very hard (she was like a Mother to me as my own Mum was not around during much of my life). Anniversaries are particularly hard and it's such a double edged sword - I long to think about her as much as I can and re-live a lot of the memories but doing so brings the sadness too. What a beautiful photo. Mel xo

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hello there! I love it so when you leave a bit of a note to let me know how you are and what you are thinking. I always love to hear about the things inspiring you and moving you through your day.

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